mystery school

It has been a long time since I have written in this  blog. I apologize for that. We have so much going on in our lives that we forget our promises to each other  I wanted to take this  moment and tell everyone how much I love our work together.

proud roxie

heyoka and sacred clown energy

 A double rainbow  in Sedona after a monsoon

Good morning and how are you all. It was quite a gathering on Saturday. I was so energized that I did not calm down until Sunday at about 1:00 PM when I fell asleep outside in the sun while reading. We worked with the template for the Heyoka or sacred clown energy from native american tradition.http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=xUv9URaeTzw.
It is the energy that all of us have and it is not easy to understand and live with in it.  The purpose of Saturday's work and this will continue into other meetings as well , is to fully understand the important  role that we play in our lives in creating change. There is no mystery  that you all stepped up and answered the call to participate in this group. You are all awesome and it is time that we recognized our "awesomeness". This sacred clown  energy creates light out of darkness, laughter out of seriousness, happiness out of sadness. It is very powerful stuff. Welcome to the holy woman space.

the lessons learned from Pixie

pixie in her cave

Pixie and I continue to teach each other many things. I feel that she is visiting me in the second dog  body in this life time. I had a dog named Sandy, a german shephard collie mix,  as a child and she was only with our family for one year. This time around, she has already been with me for 8 years. I am so grateful for all of the time together. As all of you know, she has had a mast cell tumor that she has called the "bump" and it has been growing gradually over the  past four years. Upon returning from Sedona on Sept 19th , Nat and I noticed that it was significantly bigger. We had avoided surgery for years since it often exacerbates these tumors and they begin to spread. Let me also add, that the vet wanted to operate four years ago and we opted for less invasive solutions at the time.

difficult times

 the  manatee's flow

Last nights mid month check in was a bit unsettling. There was so much going on for everyone and not much anyone could say on the physical level. I believe that we just need to continue to trust that things are unfolding as they need to but not usually in the way that we want them  to. Please stay out of the undertow and stay in the flow. Things are bound to start clarifying and clearing for each of us. Remember we all asked to be here now so that we could all do this healing for ourselves, our loved ones and our beloved planet.
 Namaste dearest ones.

A blessing

A selection from ANAM CARA( soul friend) by the Late Irish Poet, John O" Donohue

dragonfly collage

A Blessing
May the Light of your soul guide you.
May the light of your soul bless the work
You do with the secret love and warmth of your heart.
May you see in what you do the beauty of your own soul.
May the sacredness of your work bring healing, light and renewal to those
Who work with you and to those who see and receive your work.
May your work never weary you.
May it release within you wellsprings of refreshment, inspiration and excitement.
May you be present in what you do.
May you never become lost in the bland absences.
May the day never burden you.
May dawn find you awake and alert, approaching your new day with dreams,
Possibilities and promises.
May evening find you gracious and fulfilled.
May you  go into the night Blessed, sheltered and protected.
May your soul calm, console and renew you.

Have a good night dear soul friends.
Audrey

independance day

hello dear ones!

I am looking forward to our gathering next week. I feel like we have a lot to share since there are layers and layers of revelations about all sorts of things.  Our mid month check in was wonderful. Thanks to everyone that showed up. There were some themes that came up during our talk which  revolved around intuition, illusion and the dragonfly, community, break throughs, animals, rebirth, sadness and dreams. As I commented on the call, everyone is a  different place and yet we are all in the same place. We are able to hold each other kindly whether some one is having great success or great failures. It is the same. It is all how we hold the event and each other. A brilliant lesson for all of us to learn.

summer solstice

wwodstock backyard

Pixie and I have been on vacation in Vermont all week and it has been lovely. We arrived on Friday, June 17th. It was a long ride since I took the back roads and it was a bit confusing. As soon as we drove into the driveway of the house where we were staying. I took Pixie out for a walk around the lovely property. It was very green and peaceful. I was enjoying being out of the car and all of a sudden I heard a yelping sound and Pixie had seized a baby groundhog and was about to kill it. Well, at that point, I screamed so loudly that the golden retriever, named Pi , across the street looked up in alarm and Pixie dropped the groundhog quickly.

tomorrow's gathering and tonight's dreaming

the night sky

Hi everyone,

It is amazing that we are about to participate in our third gathering of the mystery school. I am looking forward to seeing everyone at 9:00AM in the barn. Please remember to bring your journals and your dreams.
I would like to make a request about tonight's dreaming. If everyone would ask a vast open ended question similar to, what would be in the highest good for me to know as a member of this group right before going to sleep tonight. It is a spiritual experiment for all of us.
Love you and see you tomorrow.

story telling and truth telling

wise turtle

I love stories . In fact when I was 22, I decided that I did not have enough stories to tell so I decided to travel so that I could increase my repertoire of stories. I ended up traveling throughout North America, Central America and Europe for about three and 1/2 years. I had stories about all kinds of situations containing people and animals, safe and dangerous events, and  happy and sad times  .I told the stories to my family, friends, clients and whomever else would listen. Sometimes, I would tell the same story over and over again .  I was so happy to have these stories to tell but now I realize that the most important  and hardest story  to speak about is what is actually going on right now.

ground hogs in our world

groundhog gets high

Today was an amazing group. We missed you both,  Deby and Sue. Please talk to your soul buddies  in order to get fully caught up with today's work. The theme of today's meeting was the emerging ability to walk in two worlds. The two worlds can mean the 3 D   and spirit worlds , the human and animal worlds, the sane and the" crazy" world, the healthy and the "sick" world. It doesn't matter, the lessons are here to teach us how to slow down and walk more carefully on the edge of the two worlds. During sharing, we discovered that everyone had stories about needing to walk slowly and watch our reactions to events.

Cranky

posibilities

I am not sure that today is a good day to post . I am feeling out of sorts. There is no particular reason for the  feeling.I did try making one up though. I checked the full moon status and it is not until May 18th. I usually know when there is a  full moon by the difficulty that I have sleeping at night. So if it isn't a full moon, what else could it be. I can blame it on assorted issues with my family and friends,  but  I know that in the long run, blame isn't helpful either. I hate sitting with feeling  out of sorts and having no reason.
I know that there are many reasons to feel grateful and that doesn't help either .

yesterday and the beginning

I am having difficulty finding the words to express my gratitude for yesterday's gathering. It was awesome. I am so grateful that everyone showed up with such open hearts and minds. The weather was  very stormy but interestingly, it often is when significant  healing is beginning. About 10 years ago, I invited a healer named Suzy Miller to give a workshop in my office in Somerville. Some of you may remember this night. There were about 10 women in the group and we did energy healing work that literally took us to other dimensions.

anxiety and worrying

fairies in the tree.

I woke up this morning thinking about the pear mystery school and I was really anxious about it. Actually, I was filled with incredible doubt. Who am I to do this all by myself. Then I realized that I am not doing this all by myself but with 9 amazing women who bring in so much love , caring and wisdom that I need not worry. I feel that I worry all of the time. If it is not about the mystery school then it is about getting the taxes in on time or making sure that there is food for the dogs or that the recycling is taken to the curb. I think sometimes about why I worry so much. Often, it doesn't get me anywhere except to worry even more. So then, I stop thinking but knowing me, that lasts for about 5 minutes and I am thinking again.

Indigo energy

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The Pear mystery school has been in my thoughts and dreams pretty constantly since the idea has started to form into an actual creation. Pixie and  I took a walk on the tow path today  and I received even more information. Sometimes, I think that I am a bit obsessive about things. I take something and can't let it go until whatever it is that I am thinking about is  grounded. I also pay a lot of attention to events and issues  that are happening in my daily life. Nothing is a coincidence but not everything has a great deal of meaning. There are patterns for events and they can take on a bigger meaning or singular events can have  significance. I feel that it is important to  just paying attention to the ebb and flow of things.

the beginning

Meditation at Omega

I am so happy to be writing this post. It means that my initial yearning to share this journey in the form of a mystery school is being realized. The journey has been a long one. I started on my own healing path when I was about 22 and had just moved to San Francisco in 1969.